2026-05-16

I go to Parkstreet and look at people

I understand how crucial it is to work on yourself. I get how easy it is to loose yourself on others.

I wanna live in the documents but I also wanna live in the experiences.

I want to lift weights, go for morning runs, study, consume art and journal.

Documenting life isn't enough for me, i wanna live it too.

I wanna make my phone a notetaking dream device. But it's full of distractions in one second. I feel like it's upon us too, how we use it. I just can't keep reading byung chul han and hate mobile phones for having features. It is not like it's gonna change.

I wanna work. But the idea of what Work is and how I'm supposed to feel while doing it is so far from each other is that i feel like I should be having this forward momentum while working. Maybe it isn't about having light bulb moments all the time.

Maybe work is more about being frustrated on a problem. And trying to solve it all day. Maybe work is practicing the same drill everyday for weeks.

Not all day, but everyday. It's consisteny in long term what brings changes not intensity of a single day.

That is what I learned from PewDiePie as well. He speaks about value of being consistent alot in his videos.